Not a lot of people know this but this baby has been very much waited for! If it was up to us, we would already have a third child by now! But we know that God is the one who directs our plans. The past year has been a long one full of hope and disappointments month after month. With our other two kids, we never had any trouble getting pregnant so this was all new to us. We began to look into adoption, wondering if perhaps another biological child wasn't in His plans. It was a year of learning patience. A year of learning contentment. Could I be okay if God only gave us two children? Yes, I would eventually be okay but it would be difficult. I finally started sharing this pain with a small group of amazing ladies from my church. They began praying fervently on our behalf for God's blessing of another child, whether that meant naturally or through adoption. In March, about a week or two before we would find out whether we were pregnant, I felt such peace. For the first time in a year, I felt such complete peace. If I was not pregnant, we were ready to pursue adoption. I had already contacted some agencies and spoken with a friend of mine who has been through the adoption process a few times. I was ready to face this. Yes, I would still be disappointed but I would not let it crush me as it had the previous months. And then....those two little lines appeared. :)
To say that we are in awe of God's faithfulness is an understatement. I am trying to cherish every single moment of this pregnancy. Even the times when I am overcome with nausea and can't find anything to eat that doesn't send me dry heaving. lol This pregnancy is a gift that I don't want to take for granted. We are trusting God to bless this precious child's life and we can't wait to tell him or her someday about what a little miracle they are!
